I got my final results back today.

Exciting? Yes.

What's more exciting: I never have to think about IB again! this, is SUPER!

Honesty is the best policy.
It just isn't always the easiest.

A lot of people claim that they "can handle the truth" even if it hurts them, but I think that in itself is a lie. It's easy to blow things out of proportion when we're hurt emotionally. Sometimes people try to avoid that by expecting the worst before the finally hear the truth. Either they're correct, and suddenly a theory has developed into reality (not always a smooth transition, e.g. Communism) or they're way off, and zomfg cue mushroom cloud.

So really I think it depends on the person. If the truth is something that concerns them deeply, then they probably deserve to know. But if its just casual gossip about somebody else that's potentially going to destroy lives, what they don't know won't hurt 'em. No harm, no foul?

what's a "new music"??

sorry guys. couldn't help it. will write real entry soontimes, promisepromise!

It's late (or early). I'm posting lyrics.
On the bright side, I'm not still playing Kingdom Hearts II.



In a faraway land we got shit made,
RayBan shades, warheads laid
Babes, born in air-raids
My girls roam the Everglades,

Indian tribesman gamble spades,,
Indian chicks, they get men laid.
Milk and honey smoke high-grade,
gold and diamond gems and jades,

ride up on our tanks, invade,
blow out things to save our name and,
Mina, Rina, Tina, Sabrina
bein' a, super Indian babe

We black market we black mane
we hit shit out when it rains
Would you come down and catch my train?
Would you run down and play this game?

Re: I played KH2 for 10 hours today!

Sh00zie: what?! holy shit!

Kathleen: I am SO proud of you!

Matt: Classy.

Jase: I hope you took breaks to eat. Eating right is super important, as is getting all the nutrients your body needs to function properly. Do you have any broccoli? Broccoli is high in several essential... *blahblahblah*

Copper: arf?

Mom: You're going nowhere in life. Did you clean your room? Did you take out the garbage? Did you walk the dog 9598608603 times today?

Andy: eh?

Kyse: O_O

Moi: *foams at mouth* 8D!

I'll talk about England later.

First: the important stuff

1. I OWN KINGDOM HEARTS II (again)

2. ( meaningless lyrics usually = meme #93485034850938 )

the United Kingdom.

OH. MY. WH00TIE.

( no dark sarcasm, in the classroom )

Recently I visited my super old fictionpress page, only to find a variety of poorly-written short stories that served as my tenth grade answer to the MYP/IB Personal Project, save for a single poem I wrote maybe in grade eleven. You know how sometimes you're really excited to write something, because you've been inspired by something of a similar genre? Well, I can't remember what I was thinking/feeling when I wrote this poem, but more than a year later, I think it's one of the best things I've ever written.

That's a pretty rare thing for me. Sometimes, as I finish off the end of a novel, I go back to the earlier chapters and realize how bad they are. I almost never like older stuff that I've written and then stumble upon later.

Poetry is a funny thing for me. I used to really be into it, but I got frustrated in high school and stopped writing them altogether. Except that last year, I wrote a MASSIVE piece that had a rhyme-y, rap-y (I blame Ben for this) rhythm to it. I especially love stumbling upon an excellent piece of poetry, but IMHO, most of it is just crap. I have a really hard time finding skill or insight in free-verse, since it's usually just pretty words tacked together, with misplaced bits of irony and simple metaphors thrown in here and there.

I've never really thought about it before, but poetry is a lot like visual art when it comes to standards. If I'm reading a freeverse it had better have some cosmic philosophical metaphor buried within a unique and complex structure, otherwise forget it, I'm not interested. It takes actual skill to create a rhyme, and even more skill to string multiple rhymes together and create a rhythm. If you can do that well then it becomes obvious that you have some kind of talent, and you can take it from there and have a field day with poetic license and what not. I think that's the same concept my art guru teacher ran by me last year when she was talking about surrealism, abstract art, pop art, anime ... etc and telling us how it takes actual skill to imitate proportion, anatomy, balance and the realistic aspects of the physical world. This is why it's important (to me, anyhow) that art retains standards.

*dismounts soapbox*

So yeah, I'm going to try writing poetry again. I'm really excited.

a GIAAAANT pile of tempura yams + pan fried bread.

n_______n *drool*

So here's this massive Kingdom Hearts meme that I ripped off of Kathleen. Kind of makes sense, with the layout and everything right? Right?

Yeah okay, I'm just bored >__>;

( like you're trying to remember what you heard )

Certainly the evil penguin from Wallace and Gromit.

.. or that blood thirsty wolf from Lambert the Sheepish Lion.

Throughout high school I was really into greasy Chinese food. But now I'm mostly just irritated by most forms of takeout. The only thing I'm pretty much always up for eating is Japanese sashimi... preferably white tuna.

Most people want to be kids again. In fact, Peter-Pan Syndrome is common among most of my friends.
But sometimes, I wish I'd been born as early as the 1960s. Or even the 70s, or 80s. I guess that's kind of hypocritical (does anybody pronounce that as "high-po-critical"?? just wondering) since with every post I claim to be in "Neverland" because most of the time I want to be a kid again too.

Not right now though. And I stop to think of how much I wish I was in my 30s or 40s now, a lot more often than I did as a kid. Probably because I hate the direction in which my generation is heading.

Tenha o sentido na cabeça

From Portuguese. In english it means something along the lines of, "Go with some sense in you" or "Have sense in your head". My best friend is Portuguese, and whenever we go somewhere together, his Dad uses this line, probably out of affection more than anything else.

I'm so sleepy right now, but for some reason I have Celine Dion playing over and over in my head and I can't get to sleep. Also, my mom has disappeared again (this tends to happen a lot) and I don't really like going to bed when I'm the only person in the house. I had a really awful night, and was just browsing DA right now and found this controversial meme. Since I'm feeling passionate and political (meaning that I am emotional and just watched an episode of Rick Mercer) I will fill it out. Comment? Especially if you disagree with me xD;

I'm going to kick myself for this, aren't I?

( if I say I am, I get it )

My flight is booked! I leave in just nine days! I'm so excited, I've already started packing. Getting vacation from work was a lot easier than I expected, I thought my manager would give me a hard. My mom's really excited now that she knows that Sarah's going to take me to Marks and Spencer. It was her favourite store until they got rid of all the locations in North America. She's created a giant shopping list for me to take. I'm not bringing that much cash though, since England's a pretty pricy place. Sarah's been there a couple times though, so she knows some good places to shop.

Law and Order season finale last night, which means no more Michael Cutter! <3 Michael Cutter! <3 Michael Cutter! <3 until September... kind of sad really. I think I'm going to spend the entire summer watching cartoons and reruns of cancelled sci-fi shows on Space.

I haven't got much to do today, hence the new layout. It was long overdue. I had that purple thing up the longest time. I'm actually quite happy with the way it turned out. That shot of Sora is from the START screen of Kingdom Hearts 2, and I've wanted to do something with it since the game came out. It's very summer-y, ne? Kind of simple too, the header took me less than half an hour to whip up, which is a record for me. In fact the last layout I had took me days to put together. Given, that was Axel, and he's a bitch to select.

I just made pancakes for breakfast/lunch/brunch/possibly dinner, so I'm gunna go eat some of them, watch a little Charmed and head to the library at some point.

Asta!

With Anime North weekend wrapped up along with my birthday, things are calming down a little, for the moment anyways. I have no doubt that I will be all wound up again by Friday (prom) and then for the next couple of weeks with England and Sauble. I don't even want to think about it. I loaaathe the month of May D:

What else? I need to apply for OSAP soon.. like very soon, plus a credit card, which I think I will do today, except that I'm not feeling so great and haven't been since last night. Probably has something to do with the greasy Chinese food I had yesterday for lunch... I didn't feel like eating anything after that but then my mom came home with birthday cake and like, you just can't say "no" to birthday cake. Especially not your own.

Anyhow, about Anime North... I think it was pretty okay this year. There've been better years, but there have been much, MUCH, worse cons. I completed my Saiyuki Reload, which really, really sucks because I haven't completed my Saiyuki collection (I only have three volumes, and there's nine in total) which means that I can't touch any of the SRs. It just wouldn't be right.

I made my friend Kathleen come to a Saiyuki panel with me, and then she made me go to one about some other manga that I certainly did not later purchase 10 volumes of... nope. (haha, I almost ended that sentence with a preposition, but that is right next to "never spending $80 on something called on something  Ouran-High-School-somethin'-somethin'.. even if it did mean getting two extra volumes free" on my <i>Horrible Things that One Must Never Do</i> list). Erm. It'd probably be best if you would just ignore this entire paragraph. Srzly.

Lastly, here's a list. One which I thought I would never, ever make. It's under a cut because there's spoilers for the final Pendragon book.
( how did we ever go this far )

Reasons Why this Week Is Made of Awesome

- IB finished high school
- AN this weekend
- I HAVE THE FINAL PENDRAGON BOOK <3<3<3
- Michael Cutter speaks RUSSIAN
- MICHAEL CUTTER <3
- MICHAEL CUTTER <3
- MICHAEL CUTTER <3
- MICHAEL CUTTER <3
- MICHAEL CUTTER <3

( it's colder than it looks outside )

Lots of exciting stuff recently.
list!alert

- going to England next month
- officially decided to attend York U next year
- anime north is this weekend (is anybody else going?)
- my birthday is next monday
- there is THREE AND A HALF MONTHS OF SUMMER FOR ME THIS YEAR.

Those are four VERY exciting things.

Have I talked about how excited I am to go to university?? I get to have electives... and meet tons of new people, which I am so ready for. I am ready to meet a really awesome group of friends and have loads of fun, and learn about stuff that I am very passionate about.

Also: I am going to destroy Theater History.

AND! I'm officially a double major, plus I am a mere percentile away from getting the highest possible entrance scholarship. I hope the bellcurve works some of its magic so that I get non-legit grades that I probably don't deserve.

I am going to a job fair tomorrow after the French exam.

I'm not sure how I feel about this.

Well that's not entirely true.

I've been incredibly miserable about my job recently, to the point where it is taking over my life in a very, very negative way. But I can't afford to be unemployed, so I'm seriously going to get out there and see what I can do for myself.

And lastly, I'm going to fill out this MASSIVE meme while I can still call myself "seventeen"
(that actually rhymes if you pronounce "meme" as "meem")

baiz.