happy christmas julian

I don't really have role models, but there's so many fictional characters that inspire me.

First and foremost, Daniel Underwood of Coupland's Microserfs. Because he is essentially a more open version me, if I were a 22-year-old male in the year 1994. And his story was as easy to relate to as it was empowering.

A very close second is Horatio from Hamlet. I don't know why I find him so fascinating, but he's probably my favourite Shakespearean character and if I could choose any role to play in any production ever it would be Horatio. That has to mean something, right?

Almost everything in the media alienates single people. But yes, the holidays do have a way of warping the word "happiness" so that it can only come from a tall, good looking person in a business suit with a $10 000 ring in their pocket.

As for pressure on women having babies... actually no, not so much. I think babies have become the new taboo. Like homosexuality used to be. People today get their heads ripped off by the feminists of the world for even suggesting that they would like to have children. It's treated as the most unnatural thing in the world. As though now, every woman needs to be 100% focused on their career and their social life, and not worry about having kids until age 32 rolls around and they start having regrets, which can lead to dangerous pregnancies.

In fact, I'm very sad that 25 is considered "young" for having kids. I don't know if I'd want a child at 25, in fact, I don't want kids at all. Having a baby is apparently the same thing as throwing your life away. So uh, no, I think the pressure from the media to have kids has done a complete 180 in the past thirty years, as we've gone from family sitcoms in the mainstream to "reality" (essentially brainless and scripted) television.

It's sad really. I think parenthood is a wonderful choice. All the power to you.

A venn diagram would be perfect for this. I wish I could HTML a venn diagram. Yes I realize I could Flash a venn diagram, but YOU should realize how much I abhor Flash, and then we can be friends again.

Anyway.

Ten Years Ago
1. Puff the Magic Dragon - Peter Paul and Mary
2. Hakuna Matata - Elton John & Tim Rice
3. She Loves You Yeah Yeah - the Beatles
4. Singing in the Rain - Frank Sinatra
5. Octopus' Garden - the Beatles
6. Daydream Believer - the Monkees
7. Sound of Silence - Simon & Garfunkel
8. Dancing Queen - A.B.B.A.
9. Amanda - Boston
10. Jolly Holiday - Sherman & Sherman

Today
1. Baba O'Riley - the Who
2. Across the Universe - the Beatles
3. Let it Be - the Beatles
4. Boys of Summer - the Ataris
5. The Kids Are Alright - the Who
6. Woman - John Lennon
7. Puff the Magic Dragon - Peter Paul and Mary
8. Daydream Believer - the Monkees
9. Sound of Silence - Simon & Garfunkel
10. Space Oddity - David Bowie

hearing.

HAPPY DECEMBER
25 days til Christmas! Yesssss.

also i lied.

I'm going to be oriontyne for a little longer.. hopefully for not much longer, but I'm going to save that re-name token for a few more months.

Also I still have this boring layout.

Oh well.

I have like fourrr days left of school, and then I shall re-commence baking, breathing and re-designing this journal.

asta!

I'm changing my username,

I've wanted to do this for a long time, and I think now it's finally going to happen. I can't even remember what I was thinking when I came up with "oriontyne"... I believe I once was very fascinated with constellations due to an extended Andromeda kick, and that "tyne" just seemed to to sound nicely. I like internal repetitive vowel sounds.

I purchased my re-name token awhile ago, but I figured that the shift should happen with a new layout. I wish I could say that I'm stuck with Sora right now because I love him so much, but the truth is I'm just really lazy (and I don't have photoshop on my macbook [his name is linebeck]).

Make no mistake, my new username will be probably as cheesy and embarrassing as the one I have now, but I'm going to at least keep it. I think this is interesting, writing entries in a livejournal. It's been.. wow, almost three years since this one went online, and I've been updating pretty regularly I think. Besides, if I left my -14 (notice how this not-really-a-number never seems to change) readers would be heartbroken I'm sure.

And if I'm going to be a struggling artist for the rest of my life, I should at least have a forum for my thoughts.. aside from my head. And canvas. And the theatre. And.. whatever.

Oh yeah, I'm going to be a struggling artist. It's probably not obvious yet, since I'm typing this on Linebeck, but look at it this way: ten years from now, I will still be typing my journal entries on this very same Linebeck. Ah well~


asta~

p.s. michael cutter & cake pops tonight. heaaaven.

I have these lyrics in my head:

This is a song about Susan,
This is a song about the girl next door,
This is a song about the everyday occurrences,
That make you feel like letting go
Yes I think we've got a problem
So much for the afterglow,
So much for the afterglow,
So much for the afterglow,
So much for the afterglow.

Now generally I'm against banning books. But I'm also against murder. In both cases, I'll make an exception for the Twilight series and its deranged teenage fan-base.


with emphasis on regardless of literary merit

I wish I could say that I'd want to respect my friend's wishes, but the truth is if I'm going to have to pick up the pieces every time this happens, I'm not so sure I'd encourage the relationship in the first place.

That and I have zero respect for any kind of infidelity, and I don't believe in second-chances.

Okay.

Mike and Connie so belong together, like I can hardly believe. HARDLY BELIEVE.

I have Longo's today. I should quit. I should quit.

I'm going to Greeeeece, next year some time.

I'm still unhappy.

I can't wait for Christmas.

I need to read more books.

but first:

List of Things to Finish before End of Term
- prospects/perils paper
- actor's workbook entries
- creative project (15 masquerade masks *dies*)
- origins notes
- facs notes


Also I would like to:
- bake. a lot.
- work on my blog
- re-design this stupid livejournal
- write
- quit my freaking job
- find a new job
- fly


'til next time,
asta.

Writing for the sake of writing right now.

Went out with some people from work last night. I don't even want to think about work. I think this is one of those times I need to step back and let the universe handle it. I realize I talk about the universe a lot, and maybe its because I don't want to dump the bad things in the world on God. So the universe, the universe, the universe.


I have a printer for the first time in two years.

I cry when I think about my job.

I'm getting enough sleep.

one and a half out of three isn't so bad :)

LIEK OMGEE GUIIISE.

okay, I know forty minutes ago I was having a major I'm-a-teenager-in-pain moment and hating on the Go Bus System and Ontario Hydro and all BUT...

well, see, I was supposed to be a fairy this year, and just didn't have the time to get all the stuff together. So I was going to wing it (<-- lawl) and just wear this shimmery purple cloak I own and a super cool masquerade mask that I made (it's SOOO pretty) but then, five minutes ago when I was looking for the cloak, because it was just about the only moment I had all week to stop and do so, I tripped over my sweatpants and fell next to my bed.

About to cry (out of frustration from not being able to find the shimmery purple cloak of all that is shimmery purple and awesome) I instead turned my head and saw my briefcase.


THE REST IS HISTORY.

... okay not really, because it hasn't happened yet, but it will tomorrow and THEN it will be history. And if you don't know what I'm dressing up as by now, then you just haven't been paying attention.

Kurt Wagner from the X-Men. Book, T.V. AND film version.

He's just a nice guy, with a great sense of humor.

Also he's blue.

And he can teleport.

That's a tie between my friends Gagan and Shoozie, I think I've known both since I was three. Gagan I see very rarely, but we always click instantly when we talk. I pretty much live with Shooze, hence the reason he has his own tag. In fact most of my LJ entries written in the summer were written from his place. My close friends very rarely change, if they do, then they obviously weren't very close in the first place. If anything, friendship goes both ways, right?

( on a side note, if you love me, you will watch this video )

it's my favourite time of year again.

hello october! i missed you.

btw, for those of you that care, the L&O premiere was incredible. Cutter and Jack still butting heads as usual (but not really because Jack always wins by default) and I love it. Love, love, love, love it.

i'm sick, but it's okay, it's october!

Google.

Only child. And I have quite a bit to say about this.

I think that family and faith are the two things that impact a person the most. My mom said she always wanted to grow up and have lots of kids, but she and my father separated after I was born, and she... how do I explain this... doesn't "believe" in being married more than once. She says it does not conform with her morals and values. Fine, whatever.

Anyway, I don't think I'd really want to be the eldest sibling anyway. I've always, always, always wanted older siblings. When I was younger, my mom suggested that she adopt another kid, but insisted it would have to be a baby or a toddler because older kids have "backgrounds". I doubt she was even serious in the first place, but honestly it would be nice to have a sibling, older or younger. I feel like I missed out on a whole lot not having siblings. A teacher I had once told us that nobody knows you your entire life except for your brothers and sisters. I think it's true. As long as you and your brother or sister don't have like, a fifteen year age difference, and most don't, chances are they're going to know you and you're going to know them from one end to the other.

I don't know how to write families. I can write friendship, and I daresay, realistic relationships. Maybe that comes from not having have father or siblings, and a mom that worked really hard to support me growing up, but as a result was not around very much. I'm not trying to turn this into a I'm-a-teenager-my-life-sucks moment, but I think one of my biggest regrets is not having siblings. Which is funny because that's not something that's really in my control. I wonder what kind of sibling I would be. I'd like to think we'd be very close, especially if it was a brother because I've always got on better with boys than girls. But a sister would be great too. I'm never going to have nieces and nephews.

It sounds kind of silly, because there's some things about kids that I really don't like. They're selfish and unappreciative in my experience. But I've always liked communicating with them. Since there's nobody close to my age in my family, I always end up hanging out with my uncles whenever we go to family parties, or the little crowd of six-year-olds who aren't quite related to us, but still think that I'm their aunt. In fact, my mom has told me that she's surprised I have any friends my age. If it weren't for school, I don't think I'd have any at all. People my age don't interest me too much, because I always feel like we're thinking the same things, and that we're capable of the same amount of thought. That's not to say I don't have friends my own age, I do, and they're awesome, but I like meeting people older than me or younger than me, because I never feel like we're at the same level.

Also, all of my good friends have siblings. All of them. It's just not fair.

1. Scotty Doesn't Know - Lustra
2. Don't Stop Me Now - Queen
3. I Can See For Miles - the Who
4. My Sharona - the Knack
5. One Week - the Barenaked Ladies
6. Paradise by the Dashboard Light - Meatloaf
7. Spiderwebs - No Doubt
8. Wouldn't It Be Nice - the Beach Boys
9. Highway to Hell - AC/DC
10. Comfort Eagle - CAKE

Just to name a few...

I'm not a huge fan of teen movies, but Some Kind of Wonderful has a special place in my heart.

1. I'm a virgin
2. I'm suicidal
3. I'm a pathological liar